Ako ay pagayon obsessive kung minsan at mga tao mapansin. at ako mapoot ito! Magbigay ito ay hindi paano ako magkulang sa maaari. At ako ay a selfless mangingibig datapuwa't isang tao ako magkulang kanya makatarungan dahil sa ako. Ako mapoot ito kailan siya iwan ako dahil sa laro , ako mapoot ito kailan siya nasain gawin ang sikap dahil sa kanya pagkakaibigan datapuwa't hindi gawin ang sikap dahil sa ako. Lalao na kailan ako mangilangan kanya ang ang lalong nakararami , datapuwa't siya does hindi magkaroon ng pagtingin dahil sa ako gaya marami gaya ako magkaroon ng pagtingin dahil sa kanya. i am so obsessive sometimes and people notice.. and i hate it! cause this is not how i wanted to be. and i am a selfless lover but someone i want him just for me.. i hate it when he leaves me for games, i hate it when he will make the effort for his friends but not make the effort for me.. especially when i need him the most, but he does not care for me as much as i care for him.. Assignments TO DO: *SOCIETY & CULTURE; PIP- 1% Finished [| ] *ENGLISH; Journey's Binder Folder Task- 0% Finished [] plus, Oddles of Noodles of BIOLOGY Homework
281107 -- Can anyone give me advice on what to give a guy for Xmas?
tunes; NIL chat; NIL. But I'm Next To Anna, Kristy and Shannah feeling; I Want Chippies, I R Hungwies. I Miss My Hubby! entry ;
BIG FONT ENTRY TIME!
OMG I like so totally Wrote a whole entry and the Computer just went SHOOMP and my entry was GONE. Pissed off to the maximus. but anyway, my assignment number is decreasing now that I'm focusing a lot more. but I JUST WANT SCHOOL TO FINALLY END. Next week I finally End.FooF! plus Pissed off=ness that they removed all the Proxy's from the school hardrive. like WHAT THE FUCK!
On a positive note, I'm getting a DS for Christmas =D. hope I get a phone! cause my phone fucked up recently. SO LOST without it =*(. Blog reader, be considerate? LMAO I kid, I sound so selfish. and also, can anyone give me any advice on what to get a guy for Xmas? xxx
Assignments TO DO:
221107 MUSIC; Performance- 100% Finished [||||||||||||||||||||] 261107SOCIETY & CULTURE; PIP Proposal- 100% Finished [||||||||||||||||||||] 271107LEGAL; Human Rights Assessment- 100% Finished [||||||||||||||||||||] 281107BIOLOGY; Model Assignment- 100% Finished [||||||||||||||||||||] 281107BIOLOGY; EXAM- 0% Finished [] TODAY. 291107RELIGION; EXAM Sheet- 0% Finished [] 291107RELIGION; Open Book Exam- 0% Finished [] 031207MATHS; EXAM- 0% Finished [] MUST STUDY 051207LEGAL; Summary- 100% Finished [||||||||||||||||||||] *SOCIETY & CULTURE; PIP- 2% Finished [| ]
tunes; Dance of Death - Iron Maiden [How Ironic] chat; No One, Not In The Fucking Mood. feeling; Nil. entry ;
I've been so pessimistic lately.. have i not? well Its not like i have anything to look forward to. - I'm getting older - I'm still treated like a 10 year old at home - I'm not allowed out, thus, I have hardly a social life any more - I shouldn't have to skip school just to spend time with my friends. - My mum is a fucking hypocrite - HSC is coming up - I'm fucking stupid so i'm gonna get no where in life. - Then after i fail mums gonna be like 'WHEN I WAS YOUR AGE, I DIDNT GO OUT BLAH BLAH BLAH' says the woman who said she did drugs in high-school.
Some things i cant stop. hell, most things i cant stop. but WHAT THE FUCK about my mum. fucking honestly. shes such a fucking hypocrite. and it fucking pisses me off. She doesnt want me to go out ANYWHERE, shes afraid something may happen to me. she wont know where i am and what i am doing. 1. there is such thing as a MOBILE PHONE. and i am STUCK TO IT. as if i wouldnt fucking answer it. 2. she always fucking goes out with her motherfucking boyfriend. do we know where she is? no. do we know what shes doing? no. does she ever pick up her fucking phone when shes with him? NO FUCKING NO. 'We're doing work' MOTHER FUCKING BULLSHIT. BIGGEST MOTHERFUCKING BULLSHIT. HE DOESNT WORK WITH YOU. HE'S AN OUTTA WORK, ON-THE-DOLL LOUNGER.
I just don't wanna be home at all anymore. I fucking hate it. What the hell am I doing the HSC for? MYSELF. Not so that I can Buy a million dollar car or a mansion for my mum. If anyone, I'd buy all that for my dad. cause he's the supportive one. but he's such a PUSH OVER when it comes to my mum. He does everything she says, and actually LISTENS to her. What The Fuck was he thinking bringing her here from over seas. was he out of his fucking mind! fuck honestly. Now he has the shittiest life. I do feel sorry for him.. He deserves so much better, he is a brilliant man. Having a first wife that passes away, then a second wife who uses him for a selfish benefactor. Herself. She should go back to the sugar cane fields where she belongs. and shes focusing so much on my weight that she wants me to work out more than study! Then where she doesnt see me with a book in front of my face, she gives me the hugest fucking mouthful 'YOU SHOULD BE STUDYING, WHEN YOU FAIL IM GONNA SEND YOU TO THE PHILLIPINES' WTF no. Just Kick Me out. I'll be the happiest person alive. If there is anything left of me that is.
Yesterday, Diana came over, then Vu and Tony Popped by With Food and Slurpees. of course i wasn't allowed to go with them, since my dad is under the watchful eye of the devil. Diana shoulda went with them. She only stayed back cause of me. God, I'm a drag. Shes 14! Correction. 15, and Shes allowed out whenever blah blah. I'm hitting 17 and I'm treated as If i'm going to infect everyone with a disease. I Hate Jealousy. I'm so consumed by it.
i don't really feel like blogging anymore. i'm off. Assignments TO DO: *SOCIETY & CULTURE; PIP Speech- 0% Finished [ ] *SOCIETY & CULTURE; PIP- 1% Finished [| ] * MUSIC; Performance- 99% Finished [||||||||||||||||||||] Chosen Song, Need To Talk To Miss About It *ENGLISH; Journey's Binder Folder Task- 0% Finished [] *LEGAL; Human Rights Assessment- 0% Finished [] *BIOLOGY; Model Assignment- 0% Finished [] plus, Oddles of Noodles of Homework
tunes; Dance of Death - Iron Maiden chat; Vu keeps Popping On and Off feeling; Shitty. Period. entry ; Fuck all of this, honestly. This has been pretty shitty the past couple of days.
On Saturday: ˄ It was Vu's 17th Birthday ˅ Mum wouldn't Let Me Be With Him ˄ Vu Got his P's YAY ˅ Mum Wouldn't Let Me Go Cruising With Him ˄ Him and His Friends Had The Time Of Thier Lives ˅ I Was Stuck At Home Doing Nothing
On Sunday ˅ Woke Up, IN A PUDDLE, Currently Going Through Crimson Wave =( ˄ I Snuck Out of Church and Vu Picked Me Up, and .. ˅ we Went Cabra and then Couldnt find any parking spaces ˄ Then we went canley and I bought him, breakfast, lunch.. brunch! ˄ bought Bubble tea, then got to his car and droke to Cabra, to his house ˅ Neighbours were blocking driveway so we had to go for a drive about ˄ came back and the neighbours were gone, and i spent the whole morning with him. ˅ He drove me back to church, so that i could get picked up by my godforsaken mother ˄ went Parramatta ˅ Left an hour later cause my Anuty's Stove Fucked up and my Daddy had to fix it ˄ went stockies to check movie times, then went home cause it started like 3 hours later ˅ Didn't even end up going back
Today ˅ Realised it was Monday, Monday = School ˅ had to wake up early ˅ got to school at 7 am ˅ Waited an hour ˄ Got a Txt From Vu =3 = Rest of the day was okay ˅ Til mum told me I wasn't allowed to go to Vu's party this weekend
fuck all that, I'm gonna go, with or without her permission ==" Assignments TO DO: *SOCIETY & CULTURE; PIP Speech- 0% Finished [ ] * MUSIC; Performance- 50% Finished [|||||||||| ] Chosen Song, Need To Talk To Miss About It *ENGLISH; Journey's Binder Folder Task- 0% Finished [] plus, Oddles of Noodles of Homework
tunes; NIL chat; NIL feeling; upset.. and my exam starts in an hour T_T... entry ; Listeners .. just listen.
my carelessness has lead to him not wanting to talk to me.. i'm such a bad girlfriend ><. he read my blog, and now he feels worse than ever.. so its my own fault that he's mad at me.. i dont blame him, i'd be mad at me too..
but i don't want to tell him these things, because i dont want to hurt him.. if i heard things like this i know i'd be upset.. but i can't just keep it bottled up inside.. and i know only my closest friends read this blog, so it all goes well hand in hand.
I'm just afraid he wont talk to me for a while.. I don't love him because he's completely perfect, I love him because he is imperfect, but perfect in my eyes. I've made mistakes, and he's made mistakes.. I can't live one day without talking to him..
I don't know what I would do without him.. I love him..
I have to walk to school now.. i suppose just time to contemplate my thoughts.. Assignments TO DO: *LEGAL; Oral- 100% Finished [||||||||||||||||||||] *SOCIETY & CULTURE; Guide Book- 100% Finished [||||||||||||||||||||] * MUSIC; Performance- 99% Finished [||||||||||||||||||||] need PERFECTION =] [plus memoirise lyrics T_T] *MUSIC; Musicology- 10% Finished [|| ] *MUSIC; Aural- 0% Finished [ ] *ENGLISH; Oral- 0% Finished [] *VICKY'S DAILY RANT; I R Talking To Her :] - [FILLING UP -- SLOWLY] =D plus, YEARLIES T______T
tunes; Space Sonic - Ellegarden chat; Angela =] feeling; Pissed off like ever .. entry ; Thoughts? ..
You know when you hang around people so much, that you inherit their traits such as look or verbal traits, like swearing. Well my best friend is Anna, and as most people do, she swears a lot. Now, as most people do, they pick up some of the things, as I did; words like shit and fuck and such became CASUAL. Now. My boyfriend. Decided to tell me that he doesn’t like me swearing. I didn’t even realise I was saying it, so then I asked him. and I said things like 'bullshit' and 'full of shit'. yeah okay I won’t say it again. but then he said 'especially in front of someone like *****'
I didn’t realise it when he said it. but I realise now. he's embarrassed of me. I’m embarrassing to two people now. my mum because she says I’m fat. and him because I swear when I happen to be around certain people (I'm not saying these people are bad people, I love them to bits, it’s just that some of them swear a whole lot). I’ll change myself for him, not for the sake of others.
I mean shit to you, if you worry about how other people think of me other than what you think of me. I’ve been out with people where other people were like ‘what the fuck is wrong with that kid’ and I didn’t ask my partner to change… it is because of their faults, I grew to love them.
Because you’re not willing to accept my faults… does that mean you do not love me?
Assignments TO DO: *LEGAL; Oral- 100% Finished [||||||||||||||||||||] *SOCIETY & CULTURE; Guide Book- 100% Finished [||||||||||||||||||||] * MUSIC; Performance- 99% Finished [||||||||||||||||||||] need PERFECTION =] [plus memoirise lyrics T_T] *MUSIC; Musicology- 10% Finished [|| ] *MUSIC; Aural- 0% Finished [ ] *ENGLISH; Oral- 0% Finished [] *VICKY'S DAILY RANT; I R Talking To Her :] - [FILLING UP -- SLOWLY] =D plus, YEARLIES T______T
18th of March, 1991 || 16 Years Old || 2247; His Love Makes Me Smile || I LOVE Music || I'm addicted to Jrock's Pretty Boys || Dancing & Singing Is A Way Of Life || Eyeliner Is Teh Sexx || I Buy Millions Of Earrings & I Love It || Camera Whore Much? || Halfcast Filipino || WWJD <3 || HUGGLES! || My Girls Mean The World To Me || Late Sleeper, Later Waker || Hydromaniac || Illiteracy Can Kiss My Ass || When people rub your imperfections in your face? That Sucks. || I Love My Guitar & Piano || Piercings Are Sexy, I Have Seven || Unforgetable || I.LOVE.SEX.ROFL! || I'm A Networking Junkie || I Love Partying, It's My High In Life || I Like Dancing So Much, That I Danced So Hard I Tore A Ligiment LOL
PARTY like a ROCKSTAR, PLAY like an ALLSTAR, LIVE like a SUPERSTAR, LOVE like a PORNSTAR.
You wrapped your arms around me, pressing your body against mine, and in that moment of perfection, I knew we were meant to be.. and i never wanted you to let me go.. x3sonjae =]
Hunnie, I Love You =] 2247
